Be your own kind of Beautiful.

I haven't been on this in ages. AGES.

You know how it is, you try to please, try to get out of the sticky situations.. once in awhile, something happens and as much as it hurts you, you try to be the better person.. and after you try for so long it starts to stress you out to a point where you cant think about anything else because your on the brink of losing your best friend, your best guy friend, and possibly a couple other friends.. I'm here to tell you, Your not alone. You're never alone. I'm in about the same predicament.. I've gotten to the point where I've deleted her number from my phone, his number from my phone and my sim card.. and I've even deleted 2 or 3 mutual friends that would text me asking me why I'm doing what I'm doing.. I dont like people who lie about things.. I try to be as straightforward as I possibly can and in return I get lies from my so called 'best friend' and my so called 'best guy friend'. I'm really tired of it.. If you think I'm a whiney bitch, than thats your opinion.. I'm not able to handle this much stress, while having horrible nightmares that seem to NEVER go away, and still deal with the drama those two bring with them.. I'm slowly learning who to introduce to who, and who needs to stay in my life, and who [when I move] wont care.. I'm quite a depressing person at this time, so I apologize for that. LOL Forgive me, leave me, I'm sorry I'm not the best blogger on here either. I know I should forgive and forget, but its gonna take some time to actually forgive her.. him... ehh, Its gonna be a little while until I'm comfortable around him again too. :\\\\

FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE!!! :D I ACTUALLY SPENT THE NIGHT AT A GUYS HOUSE!! ON THE SAMMEEE FLOOR! :D Brady, Dilan, Draven, Jamie & myself all had a wonderful night last night ^_^ So much fun.. So what I needed after a horrible weekend. :P [I'm also glad to say that the people's names I listed above ARE NOT the ones I'm talking about throughout this whole blog. These are real friends, who have never once lied to me in their lives.]                                                                                                                                                xoxo
                                                                                                                                         StarlitSkies.

this fish was SOOO HARD to catch a good picture of. It's fins would expand [like^this] when it freaked out. XD and it would dart around the tank like it was the end of the world. XD in the end, My camera phone and I won. ^_^

I think this is one of the coolest pictures I've ever taken...

Once again, all of these were taken with my camera phone.

I dont seem like it.. but its time like these where I have to actually USE the brains I have to figure out why the hell I'm being lied to.

I do love a good mystery. but when it involves your best friends it tends to piss you off.

HOWS EVERYONE DOING TONIGHT?! HELLO CHICAGO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
no school tomorrow for me :]

I was reading through piczo blogs yesterday before I left and dude, alot of people on here whine about not being on the front page... The front page isnt all that.. least to me it isnt. I'm not here to create something that a million people will love and want to see on the homepage.
I'm here to talk to people I dont know, to people who may be going through exactly what I'm going through.. I'm here to explain my side of things, Here to write and confide in complete strangers the way I feel about certain things. Yeah, I know I'm a fairly boring individual.. but I'm just that, An Individual, and I'm alright with the way I am.. if your not, than I'm sorry, I'm not going to change.

Anyway, on a lighter note,
I finished another chapter to that book I started writing in like... March. XD were on chapter 10 now ladies and gentleman ^_^
I've also started up with my song writing again. so thats good.

My photography is on break for awhile. I realized that I like writing poetry, and short stories more than I enjoy taking pictures of beauty.. so I'm gonna switch gears for awhile. :]
I also get a new phone next month ^_^ a car in december ^_^ and dude, I'm having a good end-of-year this year minus that freaking boy. >.<

Whats your favorite book? or if you dont read,
Whats your favorite Song?

                                                                                 xoxo
                                                                                StarlitSkies.

I'm so fucking sick of this.

WARNING:
 Contains ALOT of Profanity..

Its not mine. google it.


It's been awhile.. I'm really sorry. :[ Just with the amounts of homework I have and the lack of sleep I keep getting I cant find a single minute to update. I apologize.

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CURRENT OBSESSIONS:
-GOOD CHARLOTTE ^_^
-Lollipops
-My Dance Class at school.
-The Ready Set <3
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Anyway, I just want to say something depressing REALLY QUICKLY than we'll move on to the happy thats been scarce but still there lately.
Don't you hate watching that one person fall in love with somebody else? I know I fucking do.

Let me ask you all a question, aye?
                                                                         Where do you feel most comfortable at school??

I have friends that sit at a place called 'The Wall'. and I dont like sitting there because of the Thing mentioned above ^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^ Nobody seems to like to leave it alone when I say, JUST CAUSE... they like to push, and push.. and in the end I get pissed off and end up admitting it...than from then on its COMPLETELY awkward..

So, anyway.. My answer to the question above is;
  - The Dance Studio
  - Outside

I wish I could say exactly what I want to.

I dont make alot of sense to alot of people, becuse I know better than to speak whats on my mind. It can ruin shit. It causes fights, Friendships to be cut, Relationships to screw up... I just choose not to speak exactly what I want and instead answer questions [that have an answer that has the potential to cause one of the reason's previously listed] with something that wouldn't cause anything.... but apparently when you talk to Zack its like talking to a mind reader.. HE KNOWS EVERYTHING.. yet he wont admit he does until you tell him yourself! . . .

Anyway, today was my dance test.. XD We had to learn a dance to Bieber's Baby Song, and It was actually kinda fun. ^_^ I tested 2ce.. because the first time I was really nervous and couldnt keep the beat for the life of me.. than I went up the second time and I had a clear mind, I felt the beat, and I had enough confidence to get through it without messing up ^_^ The teacher told me I did signifigantly better than the first try.. [spellcheck] So yes, I'm very excited to see the score I got Monday ^_^ I shall let you all know what that score is once I get on and blog again ... :P

PICZO IS BEING A DICK AND WONT LET ME GET UPDATES FROM ANY OF YOUR BLOGS.. NO MESSAGES, NOTHING.. ITS TOTAL FUCKED.. so sorry if I'm slacking on the comments and stuff, It's because ONE. I never get on..
and TWO. because I dont see what the new stuff is. XD

Anyway, its been a long day.. I'm gonna go read Manga. Enjoy your youth filled lives before you hit highschool okay?...

                                                                                                                          xoxo
                                                                                                                    StarlitSkies.

ps. I just lost the game.. -___-
pss. I hope the video loaded for you guys.. its not for me.

ITS RAINING!!!!! ^__^ I LOVE IT ^__^

So I'll go through my week pretty fast cuz I wanna go outside and do a little picture shoot and stuff. XD

MONDAY:
HELL.

TUESDAY.
HELL.

WEDNESDAY.
MORE HELL.

THURSDAY.
Meh.

FRIDAY.
WOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
 

XD today I'm so happy cuz I just realized that I'm on the DVD sleeve for TBP ^_^ Connor Nishijima is a great freaking friend OH. MY. HELL. XD
Tomorrow is Movie night..
                                                 Quaid, Zack, Alyssa, Ashley C., Ashley M., Aaron will all be there along with mee ^_^

What a great end to a horrible weekend..

anyway, time for pictures ^_^ LOVE!!!!!! PEACE!!!!!!! AND LADY GAGA!! [thats right.. I went there :].]

OH!!! and follow this.. It's a friend ^_^ He's chill :]

MEHBUDDY!!:D


                                                                                                                                        xoxo
                                                                                                                                 StarlitSkies.